I can talk here so freely...that and chat where no one else hears my words. It's funny how media has made us feel like we are so able to put our thoughts out there because we assume no one is really reading. I think, with a few exceptions, that may be true.
It's driving me crazy that I can't tell anyone we are selling the house. Actually I'm talking to people whenever they ask directly, but I can't shout it from the rooftops because Tracy hasn't mentioned it to his family yet. The funny thing is, I'm not exactly sure why. We talk about it and he seems to be very sure of the decision to move away. We rarely see them and most communication is on the phone or through text messaging or instant message. It seems to me, that past the one time a year that we gather, they don't know where we live anyway. In fact none of his 8 siblings have even been to our house now that I think about it. Still, it is for him to break the news....maybe he is hoping they will nurture some regret that they haven't tried to spend more time with us...maybe they would even be sad that they haven't taken the time to know Sarah better? Having had no siblings I'm not sure about that whole "sibling" thing. They are entirely differently people....we are conservative, they are liberals. It's not just the political thing, it's the social thing. Maybe we just don't seem that "fun".
I can't wait to get out of "sin" city. It's actually far from "sinful" in the area we live in. When you go 45 minutes off the strip, it's just a bunch of families trying to get away from the craziness. I won't miss it...well, maybe I'll miss the moderate temperatures all year long.
This is a scattered, brain twisting way of saying I'm just ready to be on a new path. I'm sorry to not be able to see friends and family here, but it is how it is. I can't make it any different just because I have tried to make it so. Come on house.....sell today so we can start!
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