Wednesday, July 25, 2012
I've started to think about what is going to happen when she's done with high school and makes some life choices. I hope we are always close. I hope we have forged the type of relationship that she can look back on with some happiness. I love my mom but we aren't exactly what anyone would say is "close". Maybe I don't really know how to explain close but when she's grown I'd like for Sarah to call me from time to time just to talk about her life. I have promised myself that I won't be intrusive but I hope she will feel like including us in her happiness and sadness.
There are so many dreams you have when you are expecting a baby. As time goes on, you see the person they are becoming and start to dream about what they might do with their lives. Right now, I'm thinking about my once little girl that is starting to show who she will be as a woman...and I really like her
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Monday I had an eye appointment at a retina specialist. Did I mention I'm unemployed and hubby is self employed....I do not have medical insurance right now...it wasn't in the priority list when I was trying to pay the "regular" bills. So, when my regular eye dr saw some "wrinkles" on my retina, and didn't think there was anything that could be done, she wanted to have a specialist check it out. She arranged a "cash price" and I went. The news was not what I wanted to hear - not what anyone in their right mind would want to hear I suppose. I need an expensive eye surgery to remove something called a macular pucker. Ordinarily they would let it go for awhile, but it's already advanced enough he hesitates to let it go much longer. I explained I had no insurance so he said that I could come back in, in 6 mo. and he could better evaluate how quickly it was moving. I did make sure that this was not a hereditary condition...happy I don't have to worry about Sarah for awhile.
I'm praying....it's all I can do right now and I'm going to stay positive something will come up.
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Time to be home and face the music....or at least get some laundry done!