Seeing Where it's All Going....

This is a picture of Sarah last month...just 2 months before her 14th birthday.  I used to hear my folks tell me how fast the time goes and truthfully, when I was her age it didn't seem fast at all!  Now, I get it.  I still remember rocking her to sleep at night, reading her to sleep when she got a bit bigger, and wiping away quick tears when she fell. 

I've started to think about what is going to happen when she's done with high school and makes some life choices.  I hope we are always close.  I hope we have forged the type of relationship that she can look back on with some happiness.  I love my mom but we aren't exactly what anyone would say is "close".  Maybe I don't really know how to explain close but when she's grown I'd like for Sarah to call me from time to time just to talk about her life.  I have promised myself that I won't be intrusive but I hope she will feel like including us in her happiness and sadness. 

There are so many dreams you have when you are expecting a baby.  As time goes on, you see the person they are becoming and start to dream about what they might do with their lives.  Right now, I'm thinking about my once little girl that is starting to show who she will be as a woman...and I really like her

I'm still digesting.....

I don't share often the difficulty that comes with being me sometimes.....don't get me wrong I have a GREAT life.  I love my husband with all my heart.  He is an amazing man.  A man I don't know how I was lucky enough to find.  I have a daughter who has a beautiful spirit, a kind girl who thinks well and speaks her mind. 

Monday I had an eye appointment at a retina specialist.  Did I mention I'm unemployed and hubby is self employed....I do not have medical insurance right now...it wasn't in the priority list when I was trying to pay the "regular" bills.  So, when my regular eye dr saw some "wrinkles" on my retina, and didn't think there was anything that could be done, she wanted to have a specialist check it out.  She arranged a "cash price" and I went.  The news was not what I wanted to hear - not what anyone in their right mind would want to hear I suppose.  I need an expensive eye surgery to remove something called a macular pucker.  Ordinarily they would let it go for awhile, but it's already advanced enough he hesitates to let it go much longer.  I explained I had no insurance so he said that I could come back in, in 6 mo. and he could better evaluate how quickly it was moving.  I did make sure that this was not a hereditary condition...happy I don't have to worry about Sarah for awhile.

I'm praying....it's all I can do right now and I'm going to stay positive something will come up. 

Great Vacation!

We had a great vacation in Lake Arrowhead. I had let myself forget how fun it can be to get away and spend some time together.  We are so lucky to have Tracy's family there.  Sarah had a chance to see her Aunt and her boyfriend and son for the week.  They were really awesome and I'm so glad we were able to catch up.  It's been a few years since we really talked to Tracy's sister....how does time get away?  This is the first time at the lake it was a bit chilly - mid/high 60's but wonderful for us Las Vegans who were facing over 100° temps at home! 

What an AWESOME 4th of July!  It was such a beautiful day and with the 4th falling mid week we didn't have the traffic we usually have on the lake to watch the fireworks mid lake.  It was a bit choppy and windy so Sarah and Mike's son didn't have the wakeboarding/kneeboarding experience they might have on smoother water, but I think all in all they had a wonderful time.  Grandpa had a fun time towing them around and teaching them how.  Tracy has such neat parents. 

Time to be home and face the music....or at least get some laundry done!